1. Sleep
…is a precious thing. And after 4 months of Terrah being with us, it was almost a forgotten thing! My sinus infection was still with me, despite people telling me it would go away once Terrah was born. Terrah became a bad sleeper. I couldn't lay down and breathe-- I was dependant on NyQuil to get any amout of sleep.
And thus we struggled for over a year of life. Blah!
2. Adjusting to life as a mother
…has not been as easy a transition as I thought it would be, to be honest. It's been a much bigger challenge than it thought it would. I realize that that is connected to experiencing post partum depression, as well as not sleeping-- but man, people were not kidding when they told me motherhood would be the hardest job I would have! Suddenly, showers were a luxury. Changing out of my pjs and into any other clothing was dressing up. I was spending 6+ hours again with my sleeping baby (always trying to get some sleep when she did, I slept with her. It rarely worked. ) my life had changed so completely, I struggled for a while trying to rediscover myself.
But, for the most part, I couldn't imagine my life any other way. I remembered what my life was like when I could just call up a friend and go out for the night, or sit and read a book for hours without interruption…but I didn't want it back. I loved the newborn baby laying over my shoulder, smelling the way only new babies can smell. I loved the baby that was so proud when she learned to roll over, and always had a ready and happy smile. I love this toddler with a thirst for life and going past. I love this child who loves her daddy, grandparents, cousins, and babies so much. I love the challenge that she is for me and for all she is teaching me, and I love that she will be my baby for all eternity!
3. New skills!
The first exciting thing I learn was photoshop. When Terrah was about 7 months old or so, I started itching to learn something new. I was feeling lost, and needed to pick up a new hobby. Photoshop was great! I've always been interested in photography , but we couldn't afford a camera, so I learned how to use photoshop tore touch pictures I did has, as well as learning more with digital scrap booking. It's something I continue to do and love :)
The second skill I picked up was sewing. When my sister in law, holly, was expecting her baby girl, I wanted to make her baby something, but didn't know how. I've always had a love of blankets, especially quilts, and my sister Tami was big into making car seat covers for infants, so I asked my mom if she would teach me how to sew (since my sister lives in Utah-- boo!!)
Let me tell you, that machine was so scary! And cutting up such beautiful fabric made me want to run and hide! I've always had a fear of starting new things and then having them not turn out they way I wanted--so I rarely took on new challenges. But becoming a mom made me want to over come my fears, and I wanted to be able to make lovely things for people they could treasure. Anyway, I love holly's car seat cover so much, that I decided I wanted to make and sell them. I did a mom to mom show I St. Catharines, however, two days before the show I came down with a horrible flu. I did the show anyway, but didn't sell the amount of car seat covers I had hoped to. The sewing went on hold for a while--not because I was disappointed, but because I had sewn every nap time and night for over a month. I just needed a break. :) but I'm back at sewing now, and love it! I now find that once scary and intimidating hobby RELAXING. :) and yah, I make cute stuff :)
Well; that's update #1! See you in another 3 years :)
